n, her gaze fixed on her, as if waiting for an answer. Xiao Xin beside her also placed the cup of fruit wine in her hand, waiting for the response from her family lawyer Shu.Only Shu Tinglan said: "Th...She felt terrible, guilty and ashamed. 。She is such a selfish person, she doesn't deserve Teacher Qin's care at all. 。Her instinctive action was her true self; instinct is the most genuine part of her. 。The caregiver took the basin out to empty it. Tang Su also went into the bathroom to wash her hands and tidy up her clothes. 。Lin Zhiyao stood by the bed: "Teacher Qin, I'm sorry" 。"
Teacher Qin: “It’s okay, it’s Aunt who’s troubling you, keeping you stuck in the hospital every day” 。The more Teacher Qin spoke, the more uncomfortable and guilty Lin Zhixiao felt. 。She knew she could be of no help at all in the hospital. 。Teacher Qin's daily life is taken care of meticulously by caregivers, her body is attended to by doctors and nurses. She doesn't have to do anything; she just comes every day to sit, and even the caregiver needs to split their energy to manage her meals. 。She came to sit, though she cared for Teacher Qin, but more importantly, she wanted to prove to Shi Yan that she could share the burden of life with him. 。But in that moment of escaping, she suddenly realized her own meanness. She didn't like being in the hospital, and she wouldn't take care of people. In fact, she would feel tired in her heart and find it dirty. She couldn't be as selfless as Teacher Shi towards Teacher Qin. 。That afternoon, she didn't wait for Shi Yan to come to the hospital from work. She went home early herself. 。
The image of her jumping back in fright while Tang Su charged forward was deeply etched in her mind, causing her to feel deep self-loathing and self-doubt. She didn't deserve the kindness Qin Teacher and Shi Yan showed her. 。Shi Yan was a bit surprised when he got to the hospital after work and didn't see Lin Zhiyao. 。Usually, when he arrived at the hospital, the girls would bounce over to greet him, taking his bag and asking him questions. Now that they were gone, it felt a little strange. 。
"Hey hey"
"Going home" 。Mr. Qin replied 。When Tang Sugang went to pick up dinner, he saw Shi Yan and naturally greeted him: "You're just in time, the hospital's dinner today is pretty good." 。Shi Yan glanced at her, probably misunderstanding that Lin Zhifei wasn't happy because she had just left. 。Teacher Qin explained: "I vomited pretty badly today, and QIQI might have been scared, so she went home first." 。Tell her that I really don't mind this matter. She's been working so hard taking care of me at the hospital every day lately, and I'm really grateful for her. 。Shi Yan understood the whole story and nodded, "It's fine, Feifei is not a stingy person." 。"Were you vomiting a lot today What did the doctor say"
"The doctor said it's normal and nothing to worry about. Maybe try some anti-nausea medication next time." 。"
Teacher Qin had no appetite. She drank a few sips of porridge and reluctantly ate a few bites of Tang Su's sliced apple before lying back down to rest. " 。Shi Yan went to the door and sent a video call to Lin Zhiyao. It took a while for her to answer, and her eyes were red. 。His heart ached, and he comforted: "It's okay, no one blames you. Don't blame yourself." 。"Lin Zhixiao nodded: "I'm fine." 。It was precisely because no one blamed her, but instead comforted her, that she felt self-reproach. 。She blamed herself all night, and is only starting to feel better now. 。You don't need to come to the hospital tomorrow, just rest well at home. 。I've hired an extra caregiver here, who can take care of everything. 。"
"good" 。This time Lin Zhifu didn't insist on going to the hospital again, going there would only cause trouble. 。When Ethan hung up the video, Lin Zhiyao felt worse and worse. He sent a video to Tinglan, wanting to chat with his good friend. 。 Tinglan stayed late at work today and just got on the subway: "Come home with me, I'll wait for you at the subway station." 。Wait for me. 。Lin Zhicheng immediately slung his backpack on and rushed to the subway station to meet Tinglan. 。。This was their first meeting since she had left the company. 。Tinglan didn't say anything, she took his hand and walked towards the subway. 。Lin Zhihao wasn't the type to keep things bottled up. When she sought out Tinglan, she was bound to pour her heart out. She detailed everything that had happened recently, especially her own actions today. Even she couldn't get past the hurdle they presented. 。Teacher Qin usually pays special attention to hygiene and is a very elegant person. Today, she couldn't control herself and vomited, which made her feel even worse. 。As soon as I think about my actions back then, I feel intense self-hatred and shame. I'm so sorry to Teacher Qin and Shi Yan. I couldn't even face him today, so I ran home first. 。Lin Zhifei hung his head in dejection, leaning against Tinglan's shoulder. 。"You're overthinking it, Teacher Qin won't blame you, and Mr. Shi wouldn't be angry either." 。It's a natural reaction for you to avoid this. 。"But Tang Su's natural reaction was to rush forward to take care of Teacher Qin, even though she got spit on; she didn't show any disgust at all." 。"So, are you avoiding blame because of yourself, or are you annoyed because you didn't do as well as Tang Su" "Both, so I feel especially selfish and self-centered." 。Tinglan didn't know what to say either. She understood Lin Zhifei very well. When her mother was ill, she would sometimes subconsciously avoid her. When taking care of her mother was tiring, she would also wonder why her mother got sick and why it made her so tired It's just human nature. 。
“Shush” 。"
“Hmm”
“Actually, I think Tang Su and Shi Yan are really well-suited. I used to look down on those entangled ex-girlfriends, but Tang Su... I have to admit, she’s pretty great.” 。She took care of Teacher Qin sincerely, not just for Shi Yan's sake. 。...treating Teacher Qin like her own mother and taking care of her.... 。This is also the place where Lin Zhi'ao felt frustrated, because she seemed unable to do so. The respect between her and Teacher Qin was more for Shi Yan. 。"Wow, you and Teacher Qin haven't known each other for long, it's already very good that you can do this." 。"Tinglan doesn't have much experience. But based on her understanding of Lin Zhihao, someone so free-spirited and dislikes being restricted, being able to do this already shows she has done her best." 。I'm really not a good woman. 。"Lin Zhihao could only express this sentiment in the end." 。
That night, she didn't sleep in the guest room. She insisted on sharing a bed with Tinglan. The two of them chatted until past 12 o'clock before feeling a little sleepy. 。She received Shi Yan's WeChat message in a daze:
"Aren't you home"
Seeing the gray and white avatar with the text, she sat up suddenly. 。"Teacher Shi, you're home""Well, I wanted to come back and see you " 。"Where are you"
Lin Zhixuan was about to cry: "I'm at Tinglan's house." 。So, why did she run to Tinglan's house She missed a chance to meet Teacher Shi. 。
"Teacher Shi, can I still make it back now" Lin Zhi was exasperated. 。Shi Yan smiled faintly: “I'm going back to the hospital soon.” 。He didn't trust her, so he hurried home to see her. 。But seeing her able to come out and vent with her girlfriends, he felt relieved. He understood what she went through today completely. 。The two chatted for a while on WeChat. Just as Lin Zhicheng was about to fall asleep, he suddenly received another message from him: Come down. 。subject and didn't mention where she was anymore.She is actually in Beijing, in the house that her grandfather left her.An old house, long desertedI thought it would be filled with dust and ice like l...